I’m Still Here…

You’ve probably noticed that I haven’t posted much over the past couple of months. I promise there’s a good reason. There really is. And the reason is, I was enjoying my summer. But now that fall has officially begun, you know, with the fall equinox being today and all, you’ll be seeing me post more often in the coming weeks.

If you’re curious, my meditation practice over the past couple of months has been somewhat nonexistent. I meditated mostly when I started to feel stressed. I know, I know, if I was meditating regularly the stress would not have had much stress to deal with but what can you do!? No use crying over spilled milk right? I just have to get back on the grind.

Well, gotta go. Talk again soon.

Honesty Time!

EmilysQuotes.Com-amazing-great-inspirational-quiet-mind-soul-speak-wisdom-Ma-Jaya-Sati-Bhagavati1Meditative Progress!? Eh, not much.

I know I haven’t posted much over the past few months, but that’s what happens when life gets in the way.

As far as my meditating goes, I’ll be honest, I haven’t been consistent. I’ve been meditating about twice a week. Bad, I know. The problem is, I’m having the worst time quieting my mind when I do meditate. This makes me want to do it less and less.

I suppose it’ll get easier, but I guess that requires consistency.

Meditative Progress!? Eh, Not So Much.

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Okay, so I’ve slipped up! I missed several days of meditation last week…

Okay, okay, okay, I missed all of that week. I was so freaking busy last week. I had appointments galore, temp jobs out the ying yang and soooooo many errands. I mean last week was such a bad meditation week for me BUT, I am getting back on track.

I must say, so far, I’ve really enjoyed this process. If you follow my other blog then you know I’ve been in quite a lot of pain over the past few months. But this process has helped me immensely so far and I’ve only just started. I mean, my stress level plummeted from the start. However, I can tell you right now that missing my meditations last week has had my stress at 100. It really does help and when you don’t do it, you WILL notice.

Now, I’ve decided that once I get back into my meditation routine I will add yoga to the mix. I LOVE yoga and I really need to start doing it again. Besides, yoga and meditation go hand in hand. You just can’t have one without the other.

I mean the whole thing about meditation and yoga is about connecting to the higher part of yourself, and then seeing that every living thing is connected in some way. ~ Gillian Anderson

Meditation is painful in the beginning but it bestows immortal bliss and supreme joy in the end. ~ Swami Sivananda

Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured. ~ B.K.S. Iyengar

My workout is my meditation. ~ Kyle MacLachlan

So far so…. Difficult (Day 1 – 3)

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My first few days of meditation have been difficult. I told myself that I would meditate in the morning, first thing. Now, I’m not a morning person. So it’s hard for me to get up at 7:30/8am to meditate. I usually sleep until about 3pm – I was laid off last year and have yet to find work. Depressing!? I know.

Anywho, I decided that in order to get myself into the habit of getting up in the morning, I would allow myself to tap the snooze button once. So far it has helped a little. Now I need to work on going to sleep at a more normal hour – 5am is not working for me.

As far as meditating goes… I’ve been having a difficult time sitting still, quieting my mind. I’m not sure if it’s because I normally meditate with calming music in the background. I know that learning to sit in silence is important but no one said it was going to be easy, I suppose.

Goodness, being zen-like is so hard.

30 Days of Meditation

MEDITATION1I’ve been thinking…

I don’t meditate nearly enough. And therefore, I have resolved to take my meditation practice, or lack there of, more seriously. Although I like the way I feel after meditating, my practice is quite sporadic. When things get bad, and I mean really bad, that is when I meditate.

And with everything I’ve been going through, I need to find a better outlet for my frustrations. I also need to find a way to deal with my depression as it can be quite debilitating. Some days I don’t want to get out of bed. Other days I’d prefer not exist.

Besides, meditation has so much to offer, so why not benefit from it all. I’m at a point where I don’t want to be unhappy with my life anymore and I want to be okay with my past. More importantly, I want to be excited about my future.

In order to do that though, I need to get my depression in check. I need to find a way to reconnect with the things I like… about myself and life.

Therefore, my journey of rediscovery starts with developing a consistent meditation practice.

So for the next 30 days I will meditate every day for 20 minutes. This will not be something that I do once and that’s it. I plan to make meditating a permanent addition to my daily routine.

With all of its great benefits it seemed like the logical first step of my journey.

“The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind.” ~ Carol Myss

“Meditation is a surrender, it is not a demand. It is not forcing existence your way, it is relaxing into the way existence wants you to be. It is a let-go.” ~ Osho

“To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders.” ~ Lao Tzu